ok2 coolio....Finaly year presentation on 28th Nov 2008.....
The final and only presentation to go all out
then thats it...................few weeks in school then I hope I'll graduate.....

For god's will, I will miss Republic Polytechnic, even though i kept tellin myself i hate this school........

I was amazed that there is such a campaign called "Loo campaign"
When I hear about it, I couldn't stop giggling..

There's UT on Thursday and Friday......
Like I said,"Study fail, never study also failed"

I miss my godsis Kasmiranti!

I was so excited that I aced all the 5-items for my NAFA..
Little did I know, I failed my 2.4km run...
When I tot I had another round to run, I was wrong....
In fact I reached the finished line...
Disappointed..wasn't my best...
But I wanna retake my run...
At least a C, I would get Gold...
Yes!=)

It doesn't look as clear as it seems though, but I was having fun playing this application, "Typing Race" ..LOL!

I won 1st in the race and get money. Furthermore, these money I can buy big cars!
Well this is something random..

Ok finally report is over and now is poster..6 more weeks to go before I graduate from Republic Polytechnic. Somehow, I am not sure I am feeling sad or happy????

When you gave a homerun for the person whom you love...
You wish nothin could separate them....

However, for those who had....
they had gave their heart to someone whom they love...
leaving an empty cavity in heart or for the lack of better term, heartless........
which explains the ruin of relationship after relationship for many years to come.....

So everythin went numb...........

I tot this wouldn't work for me...
Little did I know, it does make sense..

Anyway, Malaysian worker dies after being attacked by white tigers at zoo..
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20081113/tap-571-man-dies-white-tiger-enclosure-s-231650b.html
Just when I'm about to go to the zoo...-__-

I'm left with 6 1/2 hours to submit my report.

DIE!

Sometimes, there can be ups and down in life.........
worries, troubles, upsets, trauma...
it goes on till it hurts you deep down feelin numb..
people doesn't appreciate it...
thought things would get better..
blamin' every single soul available..
little did they know, they not facing the worse just yet....
there are people OUT there who's far more worse than this....

As far as I'm concern, I can accept this fact...
accept the fact that things doesn't go by my way....
but people out there please do not take things for granted...
for someone out there who once care for you are the best u could have ever asked for....

The best there is, the best there was and the best there will ever be (quote from the famous wrestler owen heart)=)

Yet, I had once let go that opportunity...
That girl...
That woman......
Is all I can ask for...

and now.....

Yesterday, I had the most scarey+freaky dream
I hope its not true though
Coz I still do....

I gave everything I had and still you turn away
If it wasn't enough, nothing in this world will be
Since you're living this life only for yourself
Just know that I lived mine for you too

I gave you the world and it wasn't good enough
So I gave you my life and still you're not satisfied
You say it's hurting you,But I promise this hurts me more
You're all alone and I've done all that I can do

So you tell me it's way too hard to make it on your own
You can do all things through me,So why are you running away?
You're searching for the things that you're missing
But the only thing you're missing is me
I miss you
I love you

I've done all that I can do
I've done
My part
Now it's up to you

Please stop this ___ so that I can get out,

Cause I don't like the looks of where you're headed,

You're telling me that you know the way by heart,

But I can't say I've ever seen you so lost,

Are you happy with all that you've been handed?

And are you tired of living life alone?

Will you ever stop taking life for granted?

Or will these dead-ended, one-way streets be your home?

You turn the music up so that you can hide,

Yourself from the things you don't want to see,

You went so fast while life passed you by,

And now you're breaking at dead-ends,

i know apparently this is meaningless but somehow things needed to be brought across

First of all, I never once hate you nor dislike you
I can say u're one of closest among her friends
But lately, your actions and words were totally uncalled for
You're talking about a promise here
Ask yourself this question, who in the world has not break promises before??
Think about it for a sec

You guys have been through thick and thin together
all gone coz of a promise?
I could not find a better word to it
BUT
please think through your actions and put aside your ego

I do not have any rights to do this or get involve in this
I AM the source of this mess
I AM the one who caused this to happen
I AM the one who ruin everything

Yes, she was stress because of the things that I did
I had my reasons and its between the both of us
I am not going to sit back and do nothing
No I'm not

You can hate me or despise me or whatever
I am indeed to be blamed for causing this
I can admit

I have no right to ruin a special relationship both party once had
If I had to lose my loved ones instead of doing that
I would

Enough said

Ok..its been a long time since I last blog. I know, I wonder where do I inherited this habit from?Hmmm...

Good news... FYP for sem 1 is over! Presented, succeeded, over and done with. Now awaiting for sem 2 and its almost graduation time! I know Fyp is stress and all, but dear, try to cope ok?

Bad news...Illegal parkin and summon from TP is not cheap...Now I just gotta work extra hard! 14 hours of work yesterday, almost half of the day is gone. I wish I can find extra time for work...:( the bad thing is that this kind of thing always happen unexpectedly. I gotta learn how to save money........

Come to think of it, NS is coming and I am getting very lazy.... I reckon I'll get my lazy ass up and start workin out!=)

Stress

Looks like it'll never end...
For these past few days been doing on my report..though its been uploaded, there are still few things that I feel my report is lacking. Really a lot...Thats when you know its going to be over, Now I gotta work on the poster for presentation....

Grr....when will school ever going to stop?

I'm pretty glad you got things sort out dear, glad indeed....everythin's gonna be alright now...=)

The rain, just never seems to bring

the joy I feel the same.

Everlasting pain of my loss remains

My heart can’t seem to learn to part

the hold you left your mark

all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark

Though I told myself won’t hold my breath

a part of me was dying

there is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you just how I was feeling

I would sing to you and tell you

I won’t live my life without you

If you gave me one chance to tell you just how I was feeling

I would hold your hand and look in your eyes

and you know I’d never let you go

The way you left me on the train

I don’t know what to say

I remember everything that day

I can’t believe we’d never dance

I just need one more chance

to share the sunset our one last romance

Enough said, something have to be done.



Dear Janice

I would like to plead you to change the facilitator of W55N Medical Microbiology, Aruna Shahani.

First of all, I would like to say that I do not like the way she facilitate our class. She expects us to share what we know during 2nd meeting without refering to our laptop. Not everyone is good at memorising especially a person like me. Therefore, I could not contribute much during 2nd meeting. Secondly, does she know what is PBL? The things that I once shared during the 1st meeting was quite useless yet she insists us to research on what are thngs she expect. Lastly, she is a boring facilitator. Basically because she do not take jokes at all.Therefore, it makes the aura of our learning dull which explains why I have not been participative.

I believe by now you would want me to give her some chance. I have already tolerate her more than three times. Initially she gave me a C which gave me less motivation to go for class. Yet, I gave her another chance and tried my best. Still she gave me low grades. She is very draggy and to be honest, its hard for me to understand because of the way she speak.

She commented, "Came late and were not focussed. Please understand that your activities like reading newspaper etc can distract others also.In fact, once you have entered late, you should try to concentrate more to catch up with others." Yes, I admit I was wrong to come late as I was caught in the heavy downpour and heavy traffic flow. However, what is wrong with me looking through newspaper while awaiting for my laptop to start? I am not even distracting others. She has no right to tell me what to do. No one is perfect. Even she herself was late for third meeting. She has no conscience.

You have once faciiltated me and I am sure you know how participative I can get. Please do not try talking to her because I am very sure I am the first one to complain about her. I plead again something to be done because this affects my grade. Thank you.

Yours sincerely,
Razi

Look at the HP mini-notebook. It weighs in at 1.19 kilograms (2.63 pounds), has an adequate 9-inch display and sports a keyboard that’s 92% full size. How I wish Rp can take this notebook like 3 years. Compared to my laptop which is as heavy as 5kg and I'm already complainng...Well...Even people with Fujitsu laptop complains too even when they got their battery and CD run out...lol!

Just something random to post...lol!

Ok this is weird...Ever since after work, I have the strange feeling that something is not right.....Its more like a thousands of needle striking at your heart...But the thing is, I am perfectly fine....

After I got back from long 9 hours of work,, I received a letter from the school...."NOTICE OF POOR ATTENDANCE"....Yea its true that I did not attend 3 lessons in week 6... Didn't really expect the letter to come this fast....Hmm....Why I didn't go to school???Due to the quarrels and arguments with me and my selenger/small girl....But everything's all cool now....Check this out, gf has officially fall too deep in our relationship for the 1st time at 22nd May 2008.......wanna know more?Nah...probably no one reads my blog except her.....Best still, none of my friends even know I have a blog......

Besides that I have another serious issue which might get to court.....Cut it short, Pass through ERP gantry without cashcard (which is defintely not true)...wanted to appeal but kept forgetting...delay till over the period...so now have to pay $70...money gone just like that....

Another thing is my FYP report..I seriously have to start writing my report as I need to hand in before 20th June 2008.... Have to find a day or two and seriously do in depth research of literature review for my report.....Dear, wanna accompany me?=)

Lastly the most IRRITATING of all why there is no motivation for school is because of my course.....Fortunately I have my gf that persistantly gives me strength to persevere.....having a science course in RP is totally not easy....PLUS a fuck up facilitators...ok now I'm going to go to school and show a fake interest in learning and get Cs or Ds for grade as I can not depend on UTs...Now that will definitely pass my module....Urgh...not easy....

Its gonna be officially be 3 more days to MOMENTUM.....can't wait to see the exciting performance....All the best to the dancers and all...Hope you guys enjoy dancing as much as the audience..=)

Ok my heart seriously feels strange....could it be I miss her? Too tired?lazy? I just can't decipher..........What's wrong with me??oh well..........stop here..

Dreams are hard to achieve...but it is not impossible..
Striving it is not easy...but its worth the while...
never regret the things that you do..
it'll only make you stronger...
mean what you said...
like Gabriel's gonna take you away
when I say "I love you"
I really mean it...
when it comes to you...Lynn..

It takes both hands to clap........If a hand doesn't want to..I doubt the other hand has the strength...Enough said...certain things are better left unsaid....

Whoa! Its been exactly a week since I last updated my blog..Apparently SOMEONE was lazy to blog so SOMEONE apparently too lazy to blog...Kinda fair huh? Well.......I wanna put pics too and just wanna say a picture means a thousand words....But yea..I ain't gonnda do it this time....;)

I officially hate school.....Just to let you know that my course sucks....simple as that.....I shall not elaborate more but yeap....school just sucks.......I wish I was in another course...More fun course rather then those stuffs using the labs for experiments and shit....how long more can I endure this?

rants and rants of complain and you'll hear more in the next coming weeks..grrr...

I'm using Dearie's lappy to update my blog.....She's teaching them the dance step and all.....So yup......

Woke up quite early today for FYP....Early in the morning when I test my Ipod shuffle, the left of my earpiece could not hear or rather hear very little noise as compared to the right one. I was so stressed up... Why of all day its spoilt?Was damn disappointed..Tried a hell lotsa times but still could not get it fixed...So yep.half way going to school, it rained damn heavily......so must wear my rain coat and all...Halfway through the heavy rain, I looked at my shoe! My goodness, why didn't I change to my slippers??How stupid but yea, it did not really got that wet though...

FYP was a failure..=(
(THIS MIGHT SEEMS BORING)
We prepared blocking solution and wash solution required for western blot; Run western blot to detect IgG. No band is observed on the blot...=( So we will need to discuss further on how to improve our work (either the purification work or protein analysis). Next week no FYP due to school's openhouse..So the 20th May might have FYP....

Miraculously, my SHUFFLE GOT FIXED! How weird.....after FYP went back to put my bag and went for a little nap before I go to school and meet Dearie.....
=)

Oh come on! Do you really thought we guys gonna break up? Well......hmmmm....I wish not!

Oh my god....My jealousy state is back....Grr.....gotta keep telling myself to keep my cool....Yes...I admit sometimes I can be a jealous man..But I don't show it! Well..actually u can tell by observing the changes in my face.....make sense huh? I hope.....KEEP IT COOL RAZI!

Gonna update a lil about today....Officially my facilitator for Medical Microbiology sucks to the core....Can you believe it? One team presents for an hour? Unbelievable but its true....Its so annoyin and irritating I literally make noise and face everytime she asked question for every single sentence we present.....Horrible!!! I swear I'm gonna swear her till death...

Later that Night, Nigel and I were caught by the police...Funny thing though, they catch me for riding under the block recklessly...WHICH I DID NOT! why would I wanna argue with the police? they won't gonna get promoted for doing this! I can still remember that rude officer, Kenny donno what sir name....How rude! Wanna summon me and snatch my bike? What nonsense...I'm not afraid...But I'm good at pretending to be sorry....Yet, still not remourseful to them!

Ok..tmr another day.....another boring day of school....Missing my dearie lots..........tc...and ya Dear...I've put a tag.....Hope you don't complain...:) Anyone can tag if you cares......

Look at that, sometimes Dear can be so sweet....When I on my laptop I see something which shocked me..!=D

Ok shoot us coz didn't go school twice this week....things mustn't be planned then things would go smooth for us..:) we had our big breakfast at checkpoint and swimming around 1....skin are pretty tanned. The sun these days are pretty hot!

Short of cash....gotta work more these days.....I hope I'm not tired and still have the energy....=)Missing my dear now..

1st of May is Labour Day...Spent the whole day sleeping......its so fun la! yet not good for my body...Oh wells, I deserve it...Have not been sleepin much for more than a week...weekdays school and FYP and weekends work.....

To go for the holidays. I really need to work extra hard these days.....Beem thinking of working weekdays after school....I hope its really worth it...Have to discuss with Dear first..

Amy got into Civil Defence..it got me thinking...will I go to the army, police or CD?? I'm old and still have not serve my national service....Will be old after that....Well...I hope in the future it'll went well....I'm getting tired again... TOO MUCH of sleep...hee...

I was looking at my photos and look at this, my Dear is leading by 17 points!! She's good...=)

I've been getting close call accidents these days....I banged onto a lorry, the next day I almost hit a lorry and the following day I almost hit a guy. This is scary...I hope its not a bad omen though.

its been few days of school, FYP and work and had not have any sleep yet.. Furthermore, hardly had any time for other things. BTT next wednesday and didn't have time to study...Hope we can pass this test....hmmm.I just hope things will go easily for the next few days...miss spending whole day with Dearie..:(

I'm having my FYP right now and here I am blogging. Its alright,don't worry, we're centrifuging our sample. In Lehman's term, we're concentrating our sample so that we can find some peak.

School been boring, its so tough with all those science wizards around me.. Urgh..Everything going fine now with my life..Dear so poor thing, her hard disk crashed....it only HAD TO CRASH after she got her laptop fixed and reformating it. Don't worry dear, mine used to crash too after I changed my LCD screen. Don't worry k?we'll get it fixed right away....

Urgh..my stomach is grumbling now and still waiting for my results to be up....Long day with FYP...=(

A beatiful girlfriend of mine sticking out her tongue while watching TV!
Opppps...didn't go to school again....I'm just too tired of studying...seriously.....especially when its dealing with Science stuffs...I really started to hate Science and I'm just surviving each day in school for the certificate...thats one of the major thing...I don't mind studying things that I like....But not things that are simply boring like Science....I'm simply not the type of person that likes to study....I'd rather learn stuffs practically...Furthermore Dear also never go to school...the aura of motivation dropped....Went to school with Dear around 1300hr to help out with the booth till late evening..

Will be getting $500 from the government...Its the GST offset package...Coz I'm already an adult..-_- and a working asset to the government...But then again, whats the point?GST has increased, oil petrol has increased and rice has increased......isn't it will eventually go to the government??Ok enough..All I know is that I'm going to save money for my next holiday with Dear..;) we're planning something big..I hope..hee...

Well my girlfriend Ang Hui Lin Lynn, tmr is your performance for the SLA and I wanna wish you and the rest of the dancemate good luck and happy dancing..You guys have worked so hard and tomorrow is the time to pull it through...Oh how I miss dancing......


Wednesday, April 17, 2008
The nothing much day...Went to school with Dear and helped her reformat her laptops and stuffs...After that slack with Nigel......Thats it...-_-


Tuesday, April 16, 2008
Probably the most tiring day....Morning as usual school stuffs.. After school straight away went to work and got drench due to the heavy downpour..Reached work quite late at 6:35....But just start work anyway...So work from 7pm till 1am...Drop dead tired.

Saturday, April 12, 2008
As usual woke up at 0830 and be prepared for work at 0930. I swear work has never been so slack that day. All the way from 10 till 1645, there wasn't any order of any food or drinks. To be frank, I've been sleepin(or rather dose off and wake up). Even I told myself that I got paid for sitting down and do nothing. Of course I need to keep my workstation need and tidy but who cares, I'm working alone. First order of the day, a cappucino and a fruit punch. Thats all and I ended work at 1900. Overtime till 2100.After that went to slack with Amy. I remembered Dear was busy and had to talk to her sis. So she ended up sleeping early. But of course, I needed my sleep too.

Sunday, April 13, 2008
Well work for today is rather a turnover. Overall, just ok. Total sales $400++. Was rather alright for a rain and cloudy day. After work, meet up with Dan to buy a gift for Dearie. Really had a good bargain. Couln't ask for more I'd say. Both of us are too smart to be cheated by those losers. Almost tricked us to pay another $45 but no, we had our sources..=) After that hang out to watch soccer and off to meet Dearie. Well, the gift was nothing special exactly. Its something I heard that my Dearie wanted and I took notice of it. I tell myself, why not I surprise her like today.=) *drum rolls* *tadar!!*Your very own PSP! Hope you love it dear(though u're so reluctant to own it..-_______-')

Monday, April 14, 2008
A whole day's work and out makes me feels so lethargic for study. Ended up not turning up for school.ooops...took this opportunity to accompany Dear. We had Yong Tau Foo and Kway Teow for breakfast. Dear got her watch fixed and off to the library to return some books. Knowing minutes later Dear forgot to bring library card to borrow library..-__- So the selenger my girlfriend. Followed by Dear transfering money to the DBS crew! Hyeah! $320 each for husband and wife and ASM. Congrats! U guys earn it.

Then we headed to Funan. Heart pain. Dear had to pay $280 plus for her fixed lappy. Really heart pain. However, I hope Dear will be extra careful to her lappy. Then Dear bought screen protector for her PSP(recommended for clumsy girl).=) You know I love you dear...=X

Both of us went to Yishun SAFRA for sessions of bowling. I'm impressed! Dear is so good at bowling. I shall show you guys how good is. I took some photos of our innings....=) The rain was non-stop and we had to stay there quite a while for it to settle down. When the rain had stopped, we had our dinne at Yoshinoya. Woo hooo! I don't know what I ordered but the food was great!... Then watch Dearie play her PSP...DAMN FUNNY! *Got this alien game and she has to capture people then the victims make funny2 noise.=) *Can ignore for those not interested.
Went home straight and yup here I am blogging and Dearie is off to bed. Ok, had a great date with Dear and i'm off to bed now...zao!

Whoa...its been a long time since I last blog and I've been thinking of starting a new blog...I hope this time I have the time to update it as people started to get annoyed when I stopped updating. Well to the right is a poll whereby you can give me your answer..=D

Ok....Dear and me has just celebrated our 3rd month anniversary and we had a great time together..had dinner at toa payoh and a night out at Changi Village. The food at toa payoh as mentioned by my girlfriend, "Mash potato too cold and the coleslaw tastes bad". The good news is she said," The fish is nice." Hyeah! At least she like the place that I invited her.

Ok let me brief through my 1st week of my last 2 semester in Republic Polytechnic. Basically I took Lab management (Monday), Genomics (Tuesday) FYP (Wednesday), Proteomics (Thursday) and Medical Microbiology (Friday). Monday and Thursday are great facilitators. However, Tuesday is quite boring faci. The worse of all is Friday, the most fucked up faci in my life and too strict. I was so pressurized and this does not make my learning process better. Argh!

Ok shall update more soon. Gotta sleep soon for my work tomorrow..happy!=D